Sometimes I
sit alone, worrying about my life. Maybe I’m not the best I can be. Am I
reaching my potential?
I push the thoughts away and go on with my
busy schedule. I arrange a bouquet of flowers from the garden for a sick friend,
make a potato casserole for a funeral, volunteer at the school, or weed the
garden. But all the time I’m thinking that I can’t succeed and I’m not making a
difference anywhere.
During these
times, I ask God for help. I sit in the sunny garden and reflect on
carefree days—like exploring the sea shore with my mother.
My mood lightens a little. I focus on doing for others, like I did before; but this time I tell myself I am making a difference in people’s lives—in my life. I still do small things, like saying ‘hi’ to a neighbor or answering an email from a friend. Maybe I make a new face book friend or call my daughter. I review the scripture I read that morning. Because I’m focusing on the positive, I feel more alive—lighter.
My mood lightens a little. I focus on doing for others, like I did before; but this time I tell myself I am making a difference in people’s lives—in my life. I still do small things, like saying ‘hi’ to a neighbor or answering an email from a friend. Maybe I make a new face book friend or call my daughter. I review the scripture I read that morning. Because I’m focusing on the positive, I feel more alive—lighter.
I remember a
quote I like by Eleanor Roosevelt.
No one can make you feel inferior without
your consent.
Then I
realize I’m the one who has been making myself feel inferior.
I begin some
of my favorite gratitude mantras. I have a lot of blessings! Soon I spill over
with thankfulness, and I let it engulf me.
What have I
done to help myself feel better? I’ve connected with my world, my friends, my
family the way I always do. But I’m kind to myself. I give myself a break. Why
can’t I remember not to worry about not measuring up? I don’t know. Then I
think about Corrie ten Boom.
Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties
today of its strength.
And I remember to
be strong just for today.
Wow, what a powerful post dear friend. I too have these kind of days; but I love how you handled it. I am afraid I let it engulf me for a while.
ReplyDeleteJust know that you have had a wonderful affect upon my life and I am happy that we are friends. You are such a awesome woman and have so many talents to share. I know you have had a deep impact on many.
Thanks for being my friend and blessings loe and hugs.
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ReplyDeleteBeautiful insight, thank you Aunt Chris I needed that today.
ReplyDeleteWe all need it--all too often for me.
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